My Reedeemer Lives

Wow, so I have completely neglected my blog already...after only one blog! hahahah. I just don't have any motivation to write in it.....It has been 12 days since I last wrote here. I don't even think I have any friends on blogpost reading this anyways. hmmm oh well. As I said before, this blog is helping me just to remember and look back on years later.

So at long last, I have finalized my schedule. As some of you know I had been debating what to do about my GE Cluster class since it is extremely boring, and i felt like it was more work and stress than it was worth. I couldn't find any good GE class to replace it though either because it conflicted with my schedule or it wasn't open. Plus, my mondays and wednesdays are hell already since I have class from 8 till 3. It might not seem that horrible...but dang, I have no idea how I ever woke up that early every day for school. insanity! haha. But finally I made a decision and just switched my discussion section. So now my Mondays and Fridays are hell. fun. oh well.

Oh oh oh!!!! Anybody want to check out the hip hop classes at Wooden with me? I thought I would be too busy this qurater to do it again, but I really miss it!! First week is free anyways. So there's one tomorrow at night and one on friday!! I need to drag someone with meee! oh but the one on friday is level b/1. what is level b/1? Is that intermediate level? I'm scared to show up and find out that it's like crazy advance stuff and it will just be way too embarrassing for me....someone join me!!!

On another note, I had a nice talk today with a good friend. It felt good to just let it out a little, and to be able to get it off my shoulders. I was also reminded of how much of a sinner I am. It is unbelievable how much I live in sin and I know it! Every second, I realize that what I'm doing is wrong and it is an enternal offense against an eternal God, but yet I still choose to do it. I really don't understand myself sometimes. I thought I was no longer a slave to sin but a slave to Christ. But the way I live makes it seem I am much more a slave to sin. What a great sinner I am. And yet He would except me back with open arms? That concept doesn't seem to make sense. Not only that, but oftentimes I don't feel wretched over my sin. I know it's wrong and I should repent so I mourn a little over it, but I don't feel like my heart is into it. Why is that? Is it only when I see inspiring videos that I can cry? Yet I can't cry over my sin? I want to be moved over it....but sometimes I just can't bring out that emotion. It's a struggle.

And now, since I mentioned an inspiring video I do have one in mind that I would like to share with everyone. This will explain my blog's title.
An amazing representation of a relationship between a father and son much like the relationship we have with our Heavenly Father.

A New Year A New Blog

And so here I am. Writing a real blog post for the first time in years at a new site in the new year. I have at long last decided to start my own blog again, and to separate it from my xanga seeing as my xanga is mostly random teenage rantings that really sound quite stupid when I reread it. I shall keep my xanga as something to laugh at. Same with my livejournal which i barely ever posted on anyways. But this blog will hopefully be someplace I can rant, write, and discuss anything I feel like in a more sophisticated manner. This blog may consist of anything from angry outbursts, kpop fangirling, or spiritual discussion.

I am also keeping this blog in a way to record my memories and my day to day activities. About a week ago, I was listening to Erica tell me about all her little OCD habits about writing everything down, keeping a very detailed calendar, etc. which helps her to just look back and see what she did that day. I badly need a way to remember different events in my life seeing as my memory is horrible so this blog will hopefully be a way to help me remember anything important or an insignificant event that I can just look back on. I have tried a journal, diary, calendar, and much more, but none seem to work. Hopefully, by using technology, it will keep me going!!! Plus, maybe this blog will help my writing skills a little since they seem to have deteriorated after being in Mr. Weitzel's class at LAB for a whole year where we did absolutely nothing.

So if I happen to add you as a friend or if you find me and for some bizarre reason would like to add me and read my blog, then I am warning you beforehand that I can get very fangirly, ranty, and/or nonsensical. Hence the name of this blog. Hope that this "new blog" works out for me, and that I will be able to now embark on a journey of blog reading again since I haven't done that in awhile since xanga died. Happy reading! Oh, and happy new year!!! :)